So I just want to write little story about our path and to give you hope and courage to continue to fight. It will be little longer.

I got married November 2016 (we were separated for 3 months and start trying in February 2017) and year and two-three month were negative.Every time my period was late I was hoping this is it it will be positive but big fat negative.So April 2018 I went to doctor (just regular gynecologist) did couple tests-check ovulation,my hormones(I had those results before I came to USA),my husband sperm those were okay,went to see are my tubes okay that was in August2019(so these test took me couple months to do we didn’t have health insurance,husband was on the road a lot so we were waiting).And my right tube was blocked,so he told me I could go on surgery so they can unblock it.But apparently when they did that ultrasound for tubes they unblocked my tube because I got pregnant next month-September 2019.We were so happy our entire family.Next weekend I was home alone hubby was on road his family was camping when I started to bleed 😭 .i called my clinic and they told me to come that day so they can draw my blood but I will need to draw my blood again on Monday and on Tuesday I should get my results .My niece drive me there they took my blood and I just returned home I was bleeding entire time and crying.So we finished that on Monday,Tuesday came and they called me to come into clinic.

Me: was it chemical pregnancy?

Doc: yes it was.Your beta level started to drop on Saturday on Monday it was really low.

Me: I knew it.

Doc: don’t worry,because you saw that you can get pregnant.Now your body will be prepared for next pregnancy and you will have higher chance to keep next pregnancy all way till you give birth.

And those words gave me strength to try again.We we’re trying and trying but next months we’re negative-again.I started to lose hope.Went to my gynecologist in April 2019 to see what now and he told me I need to wait till one year after miscarriage to see infertility specialists.And that day when I got home I talked with my husband and in my mind I just gave up,after doctor words we didn’t even try I mean we did have sex but I didn’t think about pregnancy or anything.I was working and decided to resign and to go to school.May same year day I resign I notice I didn’t get my period.Did test it was positive did second one positive again third fourth all positive.But I wasn’t excited I was afraid it will end like previous.I waited one week for bleeding but nothing (thanks good) I told my husband on his birthday (May 26) I was pregnant he was happy but scared at the same time.I tried not to give my hopes up just to be prepared for anything.First ultrasound everything is good heart beat strong.So weeks passed them trimester and then hit me I was pregnant and there is still chances of miscarriage but they are low.And we did it.January 2020 we got our rainbow baby perfect little guy our fighter.

It is hard after losing pregnancy no matter how many days/weeks/months were you.You got that positive you were mom even for a day.No one have right to tell you otherwise.After every storm comes sun and rainbow.

From the bottom of my heart I wish you all positive tests and high betas.

TTC after Chemical Pregnancy - Open Group