I was raped.

Sex without consent is rape.

Don’t let anyone tell you different.

It’s okay to feel scared but it’s better to talk about it.

In October 2018 I was out with my best friend at a club, we were drinking alcohol, when the club closed down we decided to wait until the buses started running again, (3hours of a wait)

We were approached by a group of males who seemed nice .. seemed.

One was extremely nice to me, we talked about my life, about his, about where we lived before and other things.

I really enjoyed it, he asked me if I could go with him to get some weed from a friend up the block to which I stupidly agreed and left my friend, we collected the weed but before returning he decided to smoke some so we sat on a indoor staircase of an apartment block.

He smoked up and soon began to kiss me.. I didn’t stop him, my mistake, before I even noticed his hand were in my pants where I told him no and to stop but he didn’t, I was scared at this point he was much stronger than me, I kept telling him I don’t want to have sex with him, kept saying no, but it happens anyway, I lay there without moving, and begged him not to cum in me.. soon it stopped and I met my bestfriend at the bus stop, got home and went to sleep.

The next day I told my bestfriend anything and we bought a plan B.

I read that it could mess up your period but when my period didn’t show I decided to test again.

I sat on the floor of the bathroom with the test upside down as I listened to the tick-tok of my watch, a whole three minutes which seemed like hours.

Finally, I turn it around and all of a sudden I feel weak, so so so weak, a very faint second line.. oh it can’t be possible.

Maybe the test is wrong since it’s cheap?

Having no money at the time I texted my friend who I knew had a spare test.

Another 3 long minutes of pure panic, this time, it’s not me looking at it, however, my friends face expression says it all.. it’s positive.

I decided to keep it, it wasn’t the babies fault and she was not to blame for what happened.

I made myself believe that she didn’t have a father.

And that is the truth, I am her mother and father and will be for the rest of her sweet life.

My baby girl was born two weeks late on the 5th of August and I couldn’t be happier about making the decision to keep her.

Pregnancy from Rape Support