I have decided to start my weight loss journey, finally. I'm 25 y/o, I'm 5'8" and I weight 262lbs. I need help though! If I can get encouragement and people keeping me accountable, then I know I will be able to reach my goal! So please help!!

This is how I ended up where I am:

I started gaining weight after my first period at 11 y/o. I have no clue how much I was then but I do know that in 6th grade I was 150lbs and already felt fat. When I went through puberty I gained boobs, hips and a butt FAST! My bra size was a 36D when I was 12 and I wore women size 10 at 13. I got comments from adults all the time about my big butt and how mature I looked for my age.

However the weight gain really happened from 7th to 8th grade. My family was going through a lot. My mom was misdiagnosed with bi polar disorder and depression, and the meds she took made her tired and angry. She was a single mom to three girls. My older sister was also having health issues. She was diagnosed at 16 with high blood pressure and the doctors suspected she had a mental disability or maybe on the autism spectrum. However she wasn't diagnosed. The stress of see my family hurting and sick, caused me to find comfort in food. By time I was 14 I weighed 210lbs and it stayed that way throughout high school.

Freshman year I delt with depression and never noticed until now. But in sophomore year I met my husband. I had just changed my style from goth to transitioning to normal and I was feeling myself with my new wardrobe. So on the first day of school, when I saw my husband(Garrett), I decided it would be my mission to make him mine. But he had other plans, which was to focus on God. Knowing that really help me focus my priorities on God as well. Garrett helped me a lot with reconnect with God and actually having a relationship with Jesus and I for once was happy. Garrett and I were best friends from the first day of school on.

After high school, I started a job at the mall, and was preparing for college and Garrett and I had just started dating. So I had a lot on my plate. But then my mom wasn't working and didn't have money for bills so she asked me for the money and I willing gave it to her and helped out whenever I could. She did get money from child support and it was enough to at least pay rent but for some reason, without telling me, mom didn't pay rent and we ended up being evicted from our home. I found out 3 days before we had to move.

I will forever be thankful for Garrett's family because they offered for me to live with them in their fully furnished basement, so I could continue to work and go to school. My family ended up living with my sister's friends, which was a disaster for them.

When I moved into the basement, I was so depressed because I was separated from my family for the first time ever. It was a lot to deal with and I ended up actually losing weight because of it. I had dropped down to 190lbs. But I didn't stay that way because once I started getting comfortable again, I went back up to 210lbs. I lived with my now in-laws for 7 months and then moved with my family into a house own by our church. My mom lives there basically rent free, the exception was she needed to do ministry and help other women who were struggling. She was no longer taking the meds and was focused on God and was happy to accept. She also had a job again. Which she quit to focus on ministry.

We moved in in October and in May I started a new job as a full time supervisor of a new restaurant. And that month I moved into my own place with a good friend from church. So I was completely independent and only gained 10lbs in that time.

A year later Garrett and I got married and only 3 month after being married I found out I was pregnant! At first I was pretty scared because I wasn't sure how Garrett would react to me being pregnant but when I told him, he cried and hugged me and said "I'm so happy" which made me ball!!

We instantly told our family and at the time I was promoted to a corporate trainer and would be traveling and help open up new restaurants for the company I worked for. I was excited and felt like life was finally perfect.

On September 27, 2016 I woke up to pee and found a clot of blood on my leg. I panicked and woke my husband crying trying to figure out where it came from. And realized it was me. We went to the ER where I found out that I was having a miscarriage. I was devastated. Because I was healthy they sent me home and let the miscarriage go naturally. It was the most traumatic thing that has ever happened to me. And all I did was cry, lay in bed, and eat.

From October to January I gained 30lbs and then from January to April another 20. In April I finally forgave myself for what happened and lost some weight after that. But on December 23 2017 I found out I was pregnant again and praised God!! I was so happy! I gave birth to a perfect little boy and became a SAHM.

At the started of my pregnancy I was 260lbs and after birth I was 275lb. Since giving birth I've lost almost 15lbs but my goal is to lose 90lbs. And I would like to do it by time my son is 2 but that only gives me a years. So please pray, encourage and help in any way so I can stay motivated and lose this weight! Thank you for reading!

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