Possible trigger warning - no clue where else to put this.

My fiancé broke up with me, was lying, cheating, broke my heart, picked me up and dropped me again etc so going through a lot of heartache right now from the way he has been. To then top that off ive found out im pregnant, we were trying for so so long, with two chemicals, until around 2 months ago when he randomly changed his mind, i accepted that. It hurt but accepted it. Ive already lost my daughter at 19 years ago now but that always made me say id never get an abortion.

Well here's the now situation. Its a mess. My fiance has told me to get an abortion and is really really pushing me towards it, which is upsetting and unfair. I asked him to reconsider our relationship or cohabiting but he says they aren't things that will work. He says he would support me if I continued the pregnancy. I dont really think he will that much, hes said how his other kids come first and how he has things he wants to do and would like to find a new relationship. I gave him an out to not be involved if he would rather that. He says he wants to be involved but can't commit to how much he will help. Ive said im more likely to keep it than abort and his reaction is that im mad and he is now barely willing to talk to me.

I already have a young son from a previous relationship that didn't end well and his dad has little involvement but fully through his own choices. I dont want that again. I dont want to be a single parent to two. I am currently living with my mom after my ex fiance kicked me out. I have no money and honestly have no idea how id manage everything with two kids alone. I also never ever wanted an abortion, it hurts just thinking about it. Im so stuck, so lost, so alone in this and dont know what im meant to do. I honestly dont know.

Just told him again for the 10th time to accept me continuing this as a possibility. His behaviour has suddenly change and he doesnt know how he can support something he doesnt believe in.

I get he has an opinion and has a right to that but I dont deserve this after everything he has done to me.

Just to make it clear its not the baby i wouldnt want, its more this shit. I know if I had to i would manage, I know i could do it. Im just so lost and really need help and have no one i can openly speak to about this right now that isnt him...

I know this is a mess, its not a mess id want to be in but its happened now, please no nasty comments.

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