So I don’t even know where to begin I just feel so lost.

Just a little background info. My roommate and I were off to a great start (its our first year living with each other and were almost 3 months in) and we’re both 20. We both set up rules in the beginning of the semester to follow and since last month she’s been really disrespectful towards me and our rules.

As of last month she’s been having a ton of guys over our room (which is funny bc this summer she asked me not to bring any guys home since all my friends think I’m a whore) and it’s a small dorm room, and theres like 3-5 guys in here at a time. And I always ask her, why can’t you go to their room? Why do they always need to be in ours. And I thought that we could compromise on having them stay in the room, but just leave early (they literally stay until 1am every fucking time I’m so sick of it) She just thirsts over them and I’ve really had enough because they’re here literally a minimum of three times a week.

Also, she and out mutual best friend have been talking so much shit about me behind my back ever since I got a boyfriend two months ago. They think he’s a loser because he went to trade school instead of an “actual” college. and then they tell me things like “you’re gonna cheat on him by the end of the year” or they tell me him and i are moving too fast and it’s not like me to be in a relationship. When I’ve never once cheated, I’ve never been in a “legit relationship” before because I never met anyone that deserved that of me.

Anyways, sometime ago, my roommate asked if she could borrow one of my dresses so she could go out to a party. I wasn’t in the room that night, so i texted her saying “maybe another night but id rather not have you wear my clothes”. She literally told me that I wasn’t being clear enough, and asked me to clarify and i said, no dont wear my dress. So she replies literally by saying “I’m already at the party do you want me to walk home and change” That literally pissed me OFF. Because i explicitly said no and she went behind my back and did it anyways, and then she said sorry once she saw that i was mad when i came home.

And just this past weekend she had one of our friends (the one that shit talks me and my relationship) sleep in my bed. I had to find out on one of the guys snapchat stories!!! She never asked for my permission.

All in all, I feel very much disrespected and I’ve talked about this with her and I might as well have been talking to a wall. She consciously does whatever she wants to do, even if she knows that it’ll upset, and thinks that she can just move on by saying sorry and not changing her behavior.

And if anyone made it this far (thank you for your time btw) I just want to know if I am being selfish?

I’m going to try to cancel my spring housing and i haven’t told her that and i dont even know how to go about that conversation with her or if i should even have it. I just feel so disrespected and like i lost my two best friends because they’re just so nasty to me.

College