Depressed

I just had my 4th baby. I love him with all my heart. But during my pregnancy i got really sick and was fired for taking the week off work. So I can't help to think that if I didn't get pregnant i would still have my job. And im really struggling with this. Because now i gave 4 kids and no income.

How do I deal with my husband

Ranting + need advice.I want someone to look at this from a neutral point of view.It's going to be a little long, read if you have a few mins.I'm pretty sure I have postpartum depression. I've been taking my sessions. My therapist thinks it's time to start medication. I have such low energy. I can't get off the bed all day. I've lost interest in everything. Food used to make me feed good, now it makes me feel sick. I resent and hate everyone around me mostly. Iv started focusing on the negative stuff.Okay so I had my baby in April. He's gonna turn 6 months old in a week. l've had a very traumatic pregnancy. I was diagnosed with hg pregnancy, barely survived. Ended up getting a bad case of C-section. Stitches on infected. Gallbladder pains started. Had to get my gallbladder removed 7 weeks after my C-section thru laparoscopy. Struggled with breastfeeding my baby but I pushed thru. Now he's exclusively breastfed.My husband is a nice understanding man. But he can be a weirdo who doesn't wanna understand stuff sometimes. We knew he was gonna resign from his old job and continue his studies in somくgood foreign university. We have savings to get (barely). we plan to move out of country but til then we're living with my in-laws. In our country it's a tradition to have your own room/portion at your in laws place. My husband helps his dad in his business and his dad will start to pay him as soon as his resign is put in action. Now he keeps studying.He is always studying. If he's not studying he's using his phone, or sitting in the bathroom for hours. Or with his mom/dad in their room. I keep having to remind him to spend time with me (at this point l've given up lol)Now I have a 5 yo girl, and almost 6 months old boy.One room, one washroom, 4 people and a lot of stuff. It gets so draining being with the kids all day with no help. I've asked my husband that I need my me-time. I have to spend an hour or two with myself alone so I can stay sane! I have to be at a good mental space to raise 2 kids. My 5yo, goes to preschool. That's another baggage. She cries to go to school. Children hit her and she won't say stuff.I've met the teacher quite a lot of times about this.My girl feels so left out when I'm tending to her brother and if we ever do something together I have to leave in the middle cuz the baby is crying. I can tell by her face she is lonely. My poor baby. My 5.45 months old is very needy but does his own playtime.Now tell me is it too much if I ask my husband to take care of our little one for 2 hours so I can have my me time? Is it too much to ask of him to spend time with me? Or to give us quality family time? He think I'm not supportive enough. He keeps saying"nothing ever satisfies you" We're having a bit of money problems as well. This career change thi told him l'd help him. I'd be supportive but I just can't seem to handle it well anymore. I keep getting panic attacks. I can't step out of the house. My therapist said that I have to change my environment. Now I'm confused. Will I be considered unsupportive if I keep asking him to take care of our babies. I get so exhausted. I end up getting angry on my poor kids. I don't want to ever let out my anger on them and for that I have to change this all.Lately I feel hopeless, sad, low, done, not cared for.My back aches. I can't walk properly. I end up forgetting to take my pills everyday. God. How do I deal with this all?

Going through postpartum

So I am going through postpartum. I had my daughter a little over two weeks ago and things have been kind of rough and I’m just very hormonal and emotional trying to get back to my everyday life and adjust with four kids and I guess I’m also just a little sensitive to things, I’ve had my moments where I snapped at my partner, but I apologize because sometimes it can be my fault. I just snap or he can be an asshole. Yesterday was great day but then took a turn. I showed my partner this girls dress on instagram how I love it and would dress like that and out of nowhere he said, no offense she is hot. Of course it made me feel some type of way because I just had a baby and battling with my self image, I got upset and deleted our pictures off my story I posted, and also he makes fun of me and randomly comes and hugs me and say “shhshh it’s okay patting my back like a baby and tried handing me a pacifier because after the baby I was emotional and crying. So that got to me also. Well when I deleted our photo of my instagram he called me fucking petty and unfollowed me on instagram and once again deleted all of our photos together and left his. We been together for 6 years. Just venting

Depression!

I’m extremely depressed, and lost. I don’t know what to do I had my baby boy 6 days ago and I’m having an extremely hard time. All I do is cry, I just want to feel better. If anyone has advice. Please help!❤️

“The don’t do it book”

Hey moms. 18 months postpartum. Our double rainbow miracle baby is perfect. Beyond gorgeous, super amazingly intelligent, very advanced, pretty chunky, and full of life . Pregnancy with her was hell. HG sent me through it all 9 months, had to quit working because i was so weak, could t keep food or drinks down, lost 10 pounds in the first 2 months, my skin was constantly inPain head to toe because i have eczema and the dehydration from pregnancy revenged my skin. I felt like i was dying except i had this little life inside of me. All of this left my husband who was in the middle of very intense fire fighter/emt training to support everything…. I guess he wasn’t quite in the place to do that mentally soooo…. He left for a couple months…… which really made me want to die but i had this baby in my tummy and my 6 year old at the time that needed me since dad left. I never told him that dad left, he would come home often but never stay, i just told our son that daddy was working a lot. I haven’t quite mentally gotten to the point where i feel healthy and useful. I don’t feel beautiful. I’m trying my best. This economy sucks. Most importantly i seem to find myself 7 weeks pregnant and suffering from HG again. I don’t feel good at all ever. My skin hurts so bad again. Can’t eat or drink. Too weak to work. I’m so scared for my marriage . I don’t want this baby. And i feel so bad that every thing my now 8 year old does drives me crazy. Like he’s a good kid, age appropriate, super smart. But i can’t stand for him to be in my face. Ugh and i don’t want to be pregnant.I need help. And therapy.

Breastfeeding on klonopin thoughts?

Hey y’all I want to breast feed my baby. But im taking klonopin every once and a while for panic attacks and anxiety. Has anyone breastfeed while taking klonopin and did it hurt the baby? Or should I pump and dump if I have to take it? I know if you drink you should pump and dump but idk how that works with medication. Any advice is greatly appreciated. Tia. ❤️

Intrusive thoughts

Anyone struggle with bad intrusive thoughts? I was in the car today and the thought of just opening the door and jumping out of the car on the freeway kept running through my mind. Or sometimes I’ll get this urge to just want to take a whole bunch of pills or get in my car and run away from my family. I wouldn’t actually do these things I don’t think but these types of thoughts are getting more and more frequent. I’m 4 months pp.

Extreme anxiety/wanting to hurt myself and children

My kids are 3 years and 6 months old. My postpartum anxiety has gotten so bad if the baby has a bad night I’m so anxious he’ll never sleep again and my life will be miserable. My brain is constantly going going going I can’t shut it off. I’m going crazy with all the what ifs. I’m taking my anger out on my husband and my kids. My baby is transitioning out of a sleep suit and it’s horrible. He went from sleeping 11-12 hours at night to waking every 10 mins. I get so angry that I have thoughts of doing horrible horrible things to him to hurt him. Then I’m so tired the next day I have the same thoughts about my toddler. I get breaks when my husband takes over or my mom helps but my brain still never shuts off. I feel like I’m going nuts.

Postpartum Anxiety

Hello, I’m just wanting a little insight or maybe encouragement. I’m a little over 3 weeks postpartum, I had a difficult pregnancy…bleeding the first 6 months, 3 months of bedrest, baby had nuchal cord (not tight and caused no problems for him but I saw it on ultrasound and so I worried about it for the last month before he was born)..not to mention we had been trying for 2 years to even get pregnant and then had a miscarriage prior to this baby. Anyways he’s here now and healthy but I literally can’t stop thinking something is going to go wrong. Like I’m incredibly fearful of him getting any type of sickness, I don’t want anyone holding him except me or my husband, I’m scared of SIDS, I just can’t stop worrying about everything and feeling a sense of dread. My question is since I’m only 3 weeks postpartum could this be normal or does it seem extreme?I have a daughter as well, she’s 9 so it’s been a while but I do recall being very anxious about things happening to her as well but this feels like more than it did with her.

Feeling lost

Im all new to this and feeling rather lost!

Scared

Any other mommies absolutely terrified to get pregnant again after having their baby?? I’m two months post partum and had an IUD put in and waited the Six weeks before having sex and used condoms with spermicidal lube but I’m still so scared I’ll get pregnant again even with two forms of birth control and I do not want another baby yet. It doesn’t help that tik tok keeps showing me “you’re pregnant” videos. Please tell me I’m not alone.

Postpartum anxiety

What are symptoms of postpartum anxiety? I had anxiety before but I feel like it’s much worse. I just want everyone’s take on it. I am seeing a doctor for it. Would just like to see everyone’s pov.

When does it get better 😭

I just had my last baby 4 days ago, and since I've been back home all I do is cry. The anxiety and depression and the pain of the csection and pubic symphysis is all just too much all at once 😭 any advice or what has helped you would be appreciated

Postpartum Anxiety

I’m struggling today. More than usual and I need help. My hours at work increased so i get home at 5 when it’s already dark so my workout schedule (my main outlet since i was a teenager has been lifting weights) has been severely interrupted. For example it’s Friday and I’ve worked out twice this week when i would usually have worked out at least 4-5 times . Anyways, I was driving home from work today and i just started crying like hardcore crying because the thoughts started racing. I have the most Vivid images of myself in bad situations like a horrific accident, a pole or something straight through my body, or being decapitated and leaving my 10 month old without a mama. When I’m walking down stairs I get vivid imagery of myself just falling on-top of my son and the image of his lifeless body there (i could not live with myself if anything like this ever happened) so i just hold him tighter and walk as carefully as i can. Idk what to do. I am already on Wellbutrin I’ve been on that since i was like 14 (I’m 23) I’ve been on almost everything for depression (this isn’t quite depression i can only explain it has anxiety) in my teenage years and i am breastfeeding so i don’t want anything that would mess with that or hurt him.

PPD & anxiety 2 week old

I thought post pardom was only when you stress about the baby, now I see it’s so much more. I absolutely love my baby and anytime I feel upset I just hold her close. It’s nothing wrong with her it’s me. I find myself breaking down at random moments for no reason in specific, Labor and birth was extremely hard on my body, so I can’t move how I want and I feel like I’m accomplishing nothing being in bed most the day. I’m having a identity crisis like if I don’t recognize myself anymore, sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever be able to enjoy me time again but then again I don’t want to leave her. I keep pumping 3 hours apart strictly to provide for her but even then I loose motivation for it and it gets so hard, I don’t like how pumping feels my breast get very sensitive and I get a “ick” feeling, my body is in pain & I just don’t feel like myself . How long dose this usually last 😔

Postpartum Depression

Hey ladies so I just got diagnosed with ppd if any of you goes through this I could use some tips on how to get through it, and they want to put me on Zoloft if you had that what was your experience?

Question about postpartum depression

I had my son on 2-28-22 and about 3-4 weeks ago I’ve started getting these voices in my head that my dad is dead and I need to check on him!! 😭😭😭 I talked to my counselor about it and she said it could be postpartum depression. She told me to call my obgyn about it but I don’t think a obgyn will see you for postpartum depression.

Zoloft/lexapro

I just have a question about depression/anxiety medication. I have recently been prescribed Zoloft and I have given in about almost 2 months and I feel like it’s making my head feel foggy. I asked to be put on Lexapro has anybody had good experiences on Lexapro? Thank you so much!

Pregnancy after 2 losses TW!

Ladies I really need some help. I have just found out I am pregnant with my third baby. It was a complete shock as I only miscarriaged a few months ago, my partner has made it very clear to me that he doesn’t want another kid yet so I actually haven’t told him about this one yet as I am scared I will lose him over it. Are there any ladies who have sort of been in the same situation and could give me some advice. I’d really appreciate it as it’s starting to make my depression and anxiety quite bad 😫 also yes it is his kid and yes I know it takes 2 to make a baby but we weren’t trying and I had accidentally missed a pill 🤦🏼‍♀️

Struggling

Baby is four, almost five, months old, and I've struggled the entire time. I have some pretty serious rage, when the baby is crying and I can't pick her up soon enough or feed her quick enough. I just yell and scream. I would never harm my baby. I know my limits, and put her down if it gets that far. Some days are better than others. My baby is dependent on me for everything: eating, sleeping, settling, playtime. My husband works so I'm home alone with her a lot. I just wish I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. As time goes on my depression just gets worse. I don't even want to hold her most of the time because she just stresses me out. She hasn't been sleeping more than two or three hours at a time for at least a month now. I am physically and mentally exhausted. I'm overwhelmed from taking care of the baby all day, usually by myself, and managing housework. She always wants to be held or be able to see me. I just needed to express how I feel. My husband doesn't understand, even if he says he does.