i apologize in advance because i don’t have the best grammar and when i am upset i often tend to ramble on. it’s a long story, but please read. (sorry in advance if this isn’t the right group)

so the last week has been awful. i moved out of my dads house, a pile of family shit, relationship problems, broke my phone, and more.

so anyways. i’m 18. i have my own vehicle, job, and i pay ALL of my bills. i lived with both my mom & dad (they are divorced) and even after i turned 18 i kept doing the normal custody routine for awhile because i felt it was easier on my little brother. i had been having problems with my dad for awhile now. ever since my parents got divorced around 5-6 years ago our relationship hasn’t been the best. he left my mom out of no- where, and then was dating other woman which bothered me. he recently remarried a woman with 3 kids and although i am not a huge fan of her, i always am nice to everyone. she’s very lazy. i did all the cleaning, and i was treated very badly by them. my dad is emotionally and mentally abusive. he’s also controlling.

i recently started seeing a guy. i wasn’t comfortable telling my father due to him running his mouth about everything. well last week i said i was going with friends & he found out i was with this guy. he’s threatened both me and the guy. after blowing my phone up of 100 calls, 50 messages, and calling me and cussing me out, severely. i haven’t talked to him for days. after he cussed me out and said all these awful things like they have to walk on egg shells around me because of my anxiety/depression. he sent me a message a few days ago saying “i’m so sorry, i love you.” but i didn’t answer because truthfully i blamed myself for all of this. just because that’s what it does too you. he has told my friends and family im in drugs (i am clearly NOT, i have NEVER touched any drug) and have them turned against me. my little brother wouldn’t even talk to me, and he’s the reason i never left because i just wanna protect him.

then yesterday i found a TRACKER on my car. a GPS tracker!! that he must’ve put on while i was asleep or something. it also just hit me that my step-sister who’s only 4 wont be able to see me anymore... and i had became really close to her.

on top of all that i’ve had so many others issues

going on.. i have bad health issues, i just “graduated,” i’m looking for a new job, having to move, relationship issues, now a lot of family issues, anxiety, depression, broke phone, car issues, just a lot.. 🙃

so if you all could send some prayers, advice, good vibes.. whatever.. i would so appreciate it!!! 💛

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