Okay. This is hard I'm hurt and need to vent. Advice is welcomed... I found out my husbsnd talking to other girls. Sending money. Sending and receiving nudes. (He never even sends nudes to me) He had make a fake email saying that he had that email first. No because it showed the date he created.. THEN I found some porn site PAID porn sites. He also had Ashley madison site and a few other dating sites. He said to me that he got those before we were together... NOT again it showed when he was a member. How idiotic can you be.. We've been together for 4 years were married have a kid. And we were ttc. So I don't know if I'm pregnant or not yet... but here's some other things I have recently found out. One of the girls he gave money to. For pictures and videos. I found her email. Emailed it and she was definitely two faced. Saying not my problem ect.. I searched her email.. found out she's 15!!! My husband is 24!!! He somehow has no remorse for this.... I don't know if he has sex with any of these woman. And when I try to talk to him about it. He gets defensive. Saying it's all my fault. How is it my fault when you rather look at other girls? When I try to touch you and you don't let me. When you NEVER want to have sex... whenever i ask him why does he hurt me? Why do you lie to me when I have the proof?? He just replies back with "you scare me when your angry" so you get me more angry that's f*cking smart 😠😠 I don't want to lose my husband my best friend.. but I can't even look at him without disgust and betrayed.. ps-- he hates counselling he thinks it's Bullshit that he doesn't want someone to tell him what he can and can't do...

I'm just torn..

The only reason why I'm posting anonymously is to protect his identity. . Thanks for reading I just need some reassurance....