Okay. So kinda messed up story... Two years almost ago I had a hookup with and old friend .. Who I didn't know really all that well.. From high school... I ended up getting pregnant an we didn't agree on a damn thing so we cut ties with each other. I didn't talk to him for ten months... Then baby n I found ouraelves almost homeless so I sucked it up and asked him for help. Instantly he offered his help and we started to get to know one another better.. Started to learn each other. He had a GF when I got pregnant. I didn't know this then. But now we are ... What I thought .. Trying to do this family thing but turns out he hasn't been on same page n entertaining women when he isn't here with us. I just found this out not that long ago... And we are trying to work things out but he don't talk. Won't talk to me about anything that I know is fact now.. I went n read his damn phone because I just had a bad feeling. N I was right. But now he understands how much energy I wasted and how much it hurts me that he had lied and spent time with others... I can't get over not trusting him. I'm 38 and he is 45. He doesn't seem attracted to me really and we barley have sex anymore. I feel alone and confused and unwanted. And I am feeling deep down that he is just here for our son. Who he fell head over heals with right away when he met him at 5 months old.... Does anyone have any advice ? How can untrusting aim? How can I know he really loves me n isn't here just for baby? He said I'm his Muriel's and that he does love me... But I just can't believe it. Please help because I am lost and a new form of depression is grasping and surrounding my heart an idk what to do. Thanks in advance. I am truly grateful