Pregnant??

So I haven't gotten my period for the past 3 months and it's usually very regular and on time. Me and my boyfriend of a year and a half had unprotected sex but we were careful, but I have been gaining weight and having weird cravings and mood swings so I talked to my boyfriend and he said if I'm pregnant he wants me to get an abortion or he's going to leave me but honestly if I'm pregnant I want to keep the baby because I am financially capable of raising a child but i dont know if i can deal with losing him also I'm too scared to take a pregnancy test.....any advice?