Calling all my 18+ virgin gals!

So. I'm an 18 year old girl who has had chances to have sex quite a few times. (Also I'm not at all religious.) I really liked a guy a lot, but all he wanted was sex. This isnt how it started, at first he was saying he wanted a relationship, and overall just really messed with my mind and emotions. But anyways back to the point of this post. All of my close girl friends are not virgins. They mostly lost it to people they'll never talk to again. They are tottally okay with this and Of course there is NOTHING wrong with this! There is zero judgement. But I'm just really confused because I'm the only one in my friend group that wants to wait for someone who at least knows my middle name and favorite color lol. Is anyone else out there having this struggle? Its not that I feel pressured to have sex, I'm secure in the decisions I made. But am I nieve to think it will be more special this way? I've heard no matter what the first time is always just a mess no matter what. But I've also heard waiting is worth it. Is it dumb of me to suppress all sexual feelings until I find this "person"?