I feel used

My boyfriend just made me do anal. Now I'm writing this I feel stupid but I have no one to talk to ( I just moved countries with him I have no friends). after saying no he still did it I was even crying I had never done it before and never wanted to. He's never treated me like this before, he was so emotionless and didn't care about me. After he just rolled over and went to sleep (we normally cuddle every night). I don't know what's going on and now I'm questioning if moving countries and starting a new life together was a mistake. We were so happy and now he's just gone cold. I feel so hurt, I feel like I was raped 😣 he just hurt me, emotionally, physically, then rolled over and went to sleep. I don't even know who this guy is anymore 😢😢 I'm heartbroken