I know this sounds awful but..

Is anyone else scared of gaining weight? I know it's gonna happen and it's mostly baby but alot of my family is over weight. So it scares me and I feel like I won't be able to lose it. I know I shouldn't worry because I'm already small...103 pounds. The most I have ever weighed was 125 and I didn't like it. I have found myself eating alot lately and I try to eat healthy but we all know that doesn't always work. I find myself just not wanting to eat even when I'm hungry because I don't wanna gain to much. I'm only 9w4d. Please don't judge me for the way I feel.