New and emotional about trying again!

Hello everyone. Sad to join this group, but happy to have support! Our beautiful baby boy went to Heaven at 12 weeks and we found out about it 13.3 weeks. I had a blood clot behind the placenta that sent our little one to Heaven. We delivered Ezra December 30, and I had two major pp hemorrhages that ended up with an emergency D&c on January 29. We had 2 periods and now are officially "not preventing" our rainbow babe. We don't want to say trying because the heartbreak of not being pregnant would be hard. If we get pregnant this cycle we would be due in December, which is my deepest desire! I'm surprised how emotional it is... So excited to experience pregnancy again, but so hard to start back at square one when I should be due in a few months with Ezra. Anyways, so appreciate the support ladies, and I pray we each get our perfect little rainbows soon!