Anyone else having hard time after three?

Melissa • 28 married to my childhood sweetheart ttc one more after all the mcs and ectopic pregnancies. fx
Im young have 3 kids but only one in my care. Hes three. I know im a good mother and spoil my baby too much. I feel he is lonely. Having siblings is beneficial for motor skills and communication. I want him to have that plus a play mate. Ive been ttc for 3 years in september. Its been hard. I feel the depo messed up my cycle and its taken me this long to get it back to normal. Im 5-7dpo and cramping bloated with slight heartburn off and on. I usually dont cramp until af arrives. New here just wanted to start new topic.