I am just so crushed 😭💔

I had a vvvvvf line and I have a high risk for a tubal pregnancy bc my tubes were clamped (one came off by itself and we found out we were pregnant but lost the baby all in one day on December 29th) so I went to the ER to get a blood Hcg test done and they tested it and it was negative. We have been trying to concieve again since our miscarriage. I regretted getting my tubes clamped from the second I was wheeled into recovery, I did it bc my pregnancies were very high risk, I was told that my next pregnancy would kill me but here's the thing, that pregnancy was going great, I was 10 weeks along and had none of my usual high risk symptoms (swelling all over, high blood pressure, etc). People keep saying it's easier to get pregnant after a miscarriage but it's going to be close to impossible for me 😭 I have an appt with my ob on the 18th. I'm going to suggest a reversal. I just know this won't happen with us working with one tube! Thanks for reading if you got this far, sorry it's so long but I needed to vent!