Alone on wedding day

*this is long and depressing*

The happiest day of a girl's life: Her wedding day. (Well...vow renewal. We had a courthouse wedding)

And I'm excited for it. I can't wait to marry the one I love (again)...I can't wait to have the beautiful dress and perfect hair and celebrate our love...


I'm a foster kid. I don't have family. I don't have a daddy to walk me down the aisle or dance with. I don't have a mom to help me get ready. and thanks to my awkward personality, I don't have many friends, either. (Actually...2. I have 2 friends. And that's counting my hubby). When I say my husband is all I have, its not being cute. Its true.

He, on the other hand, has a huge family and lots of friends...none of which are fond of my existence. (Once again, that damned personality of mine.)

I feel like I'm going to be the odd person out at my own wedding. If I have bridesmaids, it will be people I barely know, and only because his brothers deserve to be his groomsmen, and I know that's what he wants.

Its not even for another 6 months and I already feel lonely thinking of it.

How do I shake this and get excited for my own wedding?