This sucks

Hk Girl • Okay guess that needed updating. I am now 34 years old and not getting any younger I have currently had 15 miscarriages and have been trying for 6 years.
Well, I was supposed to start on the 1st and then it got pushed back to the fourth but now I have started spotting like barely barely there a little spot smaller than a pea... But I have now gotten my hopes up thinking that there's no way I could be pregnant now
Sorry for the rant.. Just been 4 years and yes next month is a new month but at this point I can't help but feel devastated every month that I get my period