This guy used to constantly tell he liked me (in my defense, he was never brave enough to say it clearly.. like a man not a child) at that moment I didn't take him seriously.. I honestly didn't like him back.

Like you are probably picturing.. now that I don't have him I WANT HIM sexually and emotionally. I can't stop thinking that some other girl will probably have him.. kiss him, make him a dad like he wants T-T

I won't act on this feeling because I know how it would be so selfish from me but I can't stop feeling this way either, I WANT TO FORGET ABOUT HIM so bad.