Insecure about my boobs.

Sorry if it's long.

I've always been insecure about my big boobs. I can wear 38DD, and 40D. Somehow went from flat to huge from age 12-13. I didn't even wear a proper bra cuz all the ones everyone kept giving me were wayy too small, some too big. So I had to wear sports bra, and those barely had support. Hard finding a bra, swimsuits and other clothes that fit at the top. And it hurts and bothers me without one on, I sleep in a sports.

I like pack myself down everyday with 2 bras, and regular then a sports.

Grew in so fast, which may be why they're a little low with stretch marks.

The underwire also bothers me, but without it they don't stay up.

And I hate that bras separate them making 2 mountains and valley effect, so the sports keep strap attack away. I feel like that's all dudes look at.

That was some years ago, and I still hate them.

Any advice or tips??