Tired of trying

Well I'm postive AF is on her ways even though I was due to start today and was having what I thought was a lot of pregnancy like symptoms that aren't normal for me sometimes I get some but I have had more this time around anyways I started Spoting tonight. I feel so frustrated and over whelmed and the funny thing is my fiancé and I decided to take it easy for the next month or 2 cause if I got pregnant right now we would be moving when I was due but yet I still was hopeful! I'm going to tell myself this and let's hope it sticks cause it never does! I'm gonna take a step back,take a deep breath,relax and focus on things like our daughter and my fiancé and preparing slowly to get things in order to move and just let it happen..let me get pregnant! Wish me luck that I actually can relax some and hope we conceive in a couple months