My angel baby will be one next month on the 10th and I really dont think I'll be ok...I wanted her so bad. How should I celebrate her short time with me in the best possible way? I lost her at 20 weeks and 2 days...just 4 days before I was to find out the gender. I became a mother on mother's day to an angel...she lived for an hour and a half and it was the best hour and a half of my life...and ever since I've been miserable..I've been praying and hoping for my rainbow...I would give anything to go back...everybody thinks it's my fault. Everybody places it all on me...

I just want to be able to celebrate her tiny life in the best possible way...I want her...i want the heavens to hear me... And know how much she is loved and missed...please help me...support...ideas...please please please?!?!? 💔