Stressed

I wish I was enjoying this pregnancy but I'm not. I am almost 19 weeks with my first child and I want to enjoy it but I find myself stressed, emotional and just miserable. My boyfriend is mad at me all the time because he has to pay most of the bills and yells at me almost everyday about it. Tells me I'm worthless and he needs a real woman because I'm nothing. I do work but don't make much to help with what he needs help with. He gets paid very well just gets mad because he says that he shouldn't be taking care of me. I cry myself to sleep almost every night because he is just so mean to me. I feel like I'm trying my best but seem to fall sort. He even tells me that I will be a horrible mother because I can't even financially take care of myself. But I'm trying so hard to make things better for my son and my boyfriend always makes me feel like I'm garbage 😔