I know Ur supposed to just care that it's a healthy baby and of course I want that. But as long as I could remember I wanted a baby girl. Today we found out its a boy. I'm sad and I was so glad we drove separate cars to the appt so I could be upset by myself. My SO is being understanding BUT I feel bad that I'm upset. I don't even wanna tell anyone yet cuz I dnt wanna pretend to be happy right now. Negativity not needed or wanted. Sorry for the long post, just venting to u ladies.