Getting over baby fever?

So now I'm almost 28, but I have some health issues and will need fertility treatments (💰💰💰), this week I went to a new doctor (we just moved) and told him how we are trying for a baby of our own, but my periods are totally out of wack and I fear I have endometriosis. I also have insomnia and get horrible migraines almost daily, so he prescribed me ambien and topamax. I took topamax five years ago and it was really harsh on my body, I dropped 50lbs in three months, my hair was falling out, I had zero energy, couldn't keep anything down...it was scary. He didn't ask if he could prescribe it to me, he just sent it to the pharmacy without even fucking asking me first! I had to find out from the receptionist as i checked out! 

I am very healthy now, I workout 6 days a week and eat clean, so I wondered if I took a low mil of the topamax this time around it might be okay and help with the debilitating headaches, but I wanted to do some research first...

Well I picked up my scripts, but have been doing tons of research on these meds before deciding to take them, because if I've learned anything over the years...it's that's doctors will pump their patients full of dangerous drugs at the drop of a hat and I had a bad vibe from this new doctor. Well turns out that topamax should not be taken by anyone trying to conceive or anyone that is pregnant because it causes birth defects! I specifically told my doctor we are TTC! 

Just seems like it's one thing after the other. My head is just swimming and I'm beginning to wonder if I should just give up. Is the universe trying to speak to me? Is baby number three for our family just not meant to be? How do I get over baby fever? Not getting pregnant is making me crazy, depressed, emotional... I feel so lost. 

Also, I'm definitely switching doctors.😒