I went out with all my close friends last night for dinner to celebrate this pregnancy. Since I know finally out the first trimester and know I'm having a boy. Well one of my best friends bought this lil guy a few things and it took everything in me to not cry my eyes out because my last pregnancy I lost my son at 15weeks due to my cervix opening and going into labor. As I looked at it all, all I could think was my little Aaden would be almost 3months old if he was here and born in his due date. I'm so scared of losing this baby too. Like I just want to make it to 20weeks before I announce it to my entire family. I hated giving birth to my son and knowing he was still but being told I had a miscarriage because it was under 20weeks :(