I don't know what to do anymore...

I'm tired of feeling this way and I just want to be happy again. People think is easy to just walk away... but how do you do that when it's something you want so badly. ... it's never gunna happen ... it's too far gone... but I still fight for it everyday. It's tiring... and it hurts.... it hurts so deep... so deep that it's become a part of my being. I'd like for one day to live without this pain... but it's you.. and I can't imagine a life without you. So I live every day with the pain that is killing me... the pain that I love. Why is it that you can't see how much I love you.. how much I do.. to try... try to make you happy... but it's like nothing I do is good enough. .. I wanna be good enough. I want you to love me. .. I want you to understand how I feel. It's clearly too much to ask... but I tried... I can't. .. I don't know how... I don't know why... I just don't know what to do anymore. But one thing I do know is that I love you... and it's killing me.