In complete DISAPPOINTMENT :S loosing faith :(

First of all baby dust to all :) I am completely disappointed and SO sad:( my husband and I have been together for 14+ years and have been married for 4+ years :) my marriage has been great and I have been blessed beyond words.  Prior to getting married we knew we wanted a family so 6 months prior I stopped taking the pill and we weren't protecting ourselves, and nothing happened we weren't surprised because it wasn't like we were timing our sex or anything.  Then 6 weeks after we got married we were in a horrible motorcycle accident were I almost lost my life :S I was diagnosed with a tramatc  brain injury and am legally disabled now.  I am overall fine, my biggest impairnent is my speech and short term memory, but overall fine.  Being a housewife has grow on me.  It's a job in itself.

So, after the accident we werent focused on anything but my recovery.  I had to learn to do everything again.  Then, 6 months post accident my husband had to relocate to Las Vegas for work.  So I moved in with my family still focusing on my recovery. The hubby was in Las Vegas for a good 9 months and I would make visits and he would come home every weekend.  We were still focusing on my recovery.  So the whole year went by, now we are in 2013 and he is back at home and my recovery was going well so we decided to give it another try.  We timed our sex and everything but nothing.  So of course I wanted to see my obgyn to see what's up and she had his sperm checked and said it came back fine so I had to get checked so I had an HSG were they found that my uterus was shaped funny.  So, the doctor went in and said I was full of polyups :S but, pregnancy was likely after the polyup removal.  Still nothing on our end so I went back to the obgyn and she referred me to a fertility clinic :S no fun :S so I saw them and of course they recommended IVF :S after seeing the stats & how expensive it was we took another year of trying naturally and nothing :S so, we went back to the fertility doctor.  We were extremely worried and stated we couldn't put a price tag on having a family.  We were worried about my age.  At this point I was 34.

So, we went ahead with the fertility doctors recommendation and it's SO been a process. I've had a bunch of test done and had to get more polyups removed & a cyst removed.  I guess I'm a polyup prom girl :S not cool. 

So, we started to undergo the IVF process. Thankfully the drugs weren't to bad, then I had a couple of heck ups and we ended up having to freeze our embryos that were able to be made.  I was on a high dosage of medicine had 5 follicles 2 were mature and got fertilized and became embryos.  Out of those 2, 1 made it to the critical day 5 and then we paid to have it undergo genetic testing.  We figured if we are paying all this money then we need to make sure it's right.  

The embryo didn't pass the Genetic testing:S i dont know why but it came back with a bunch of abnormalities. I was in disbelief when I got the news:( I knew there was a possibily this wouldn't work but didn't believe it not working would happen to us. I keep asking myself WHY?  We are in a GREAT position to where we can actually afford to do this and move forward and for it not to works SUCKS :S 

I'm over here on the verge of loosing faith :S. We have had so many blessings since the accident but this one :( my impairnent isn't that great I'm considered a miracle so you would think God would  also grant us this but NO :S

So, now we are back to the drawing board.  I need support :S we are meeting with the doctor on Friday to review our options.  I wonder what options are there besides trying this again :S I'm at a point where I'm not ready to spend another 25k+ but it also doesn't have a price tag and I'm not getting any younger :( im 35 years old now and the stats will just keep going down at this point.

What would you do if you were me?