So I'm not exactly sure where to post this...

My husband and I have been friends for nearly 10 years, bf&gf for 3 years, engaged for 1, & married for almost 8 months.. in this time we have lost a son (previous relationship love child who turned out not to biologically belong to my husband so mother removed him from our life.) His grandmother who basically was his mother for all intensive purposes. & 3 pregnancies. 2 most recently. And those are just the big things, there have been several small things here and there... since these 2 recent losses & all of his friends wives being able to conceive and carry full term without complications we've had a few fights.. I've pushed away bc I feel it's my fault I can't give him a child.. he told me if I didn't change my attitude and earn his forgiveness he was leaving. So I've tried to do everything he wants, & last night we had a small fight that ended with him leaving for over an hour. When he returned he told me he wants a divorce. Now maybe I'm the dumb one but I have always put him first, so I am without a vehicle, no job, & really no one I can turn to. I need advice and I have no one. I'm bawling my eyes out bc this isn't something I wanted to end, but bc I'm the only problem I don't know how to fix it.. someone PLEASE help...