Just a rant

I'm sooooo ready for AF to either show up or to get a positive pregnancy test. I'm going on vacation in November and need to get in shape. I have so many supplements and things I want to take that aren't safe for pregnancy. Every day I go without a positive or AF is a day I'm losing to get in shape. If I didn't conceive this cycle I'm taking a break until after vacation to get in shape! My period is due Saturday but I'm having NO symptoms or PMS. I hate this limbo!