I'm a jerk and was so exhausted today that I went to rest my eyes, but passed out and slept through my 16 week Dr. Appointment. I'm really depressed and can't sleep at night and so is my husband. So I've decided to cancel all my upcoming appointments and not get any moor prenatal care. I don't want to waste anymore of my obgyn's time.

UPDATE: Thanks to all the kind support from this thread I feel much better and called to reschedule. I'm going Tuesday next week and then I can apologize to my Dr and talk to her about these bad episodes of sadness. Thank you :) I could edit my previous words due to embarrassment, but that would not be true to how I was feeling. It may seem selfish or horrible or attention seeking, but I really felt that way. I don't even reach out to my own family or husband. I am not an attention seeker. I am truly thankful for everyone who gave their time and kindness while I worked through my day. They helped me feel better and not crazy and like I wasn't alone. I considered deleting this thread as soon as I felt better, but that would have been ungrateful! So instead I'm trying to express my graduated and thank and reply to all these kind, beautiful ladies.