Not sure who to turn to, as it's 1030 here, and all my friends have babies or are out downtown, but I'm sitting on the deck cuddling with the dog, in tears.

My husband and I have been together for over 13 years. We got married 4 and 1/2 years ago. After that I hit very sick and almost died (long story short, I'm diabetic, and had no idea). We have been through a lot and decided to try for a baby. We got pregnant very fast. 2 months. We were thrilled. My best friend of over 20 years got pregnant at the same time. We lost the baby at 11 weeks. That was December 2013. We've been trying ever since. We started seeing a fertility specialist in October, and again, long story short, all signs in February pointed to us being pregnant finally. We weren't, and we were devestated. Meanwhile, my best friend has a baby that's almost 1, and my sister is pregnant with her second unplanned baby. We decided to take a break from trying and specialists, because it was so hard. We decided to try again this month, but just ovulation tests and things. I'm ovulating right now, and we got in this big fight tonight. My hubby stopped talking to me and went to bed, but before that he said a lot of things like "we're just never going to have a baby..." I hate when we fight, and it's rare. We have a great marriage. We want a baby so bad, but I don't want to ruin our marriage over it. Ive been crying since he went to bed. Not sure what to do to fix this. I've put myself in his shoes, and I know why he's upset, but I feel like he isn't relating to me, and I'm scared we can't get pregnant. :-(

Anyone, help please? Advice, support, similar stories? Thanks.