So disappointed and anxious

I went to L & D thinking I was leaking. My undies were wet for a few hours between changing them.  I was sent home 3 cm and 80% effaced not leaking amniotic fluid. I just want to be done and to stop wondering "when". My first was so cut and dry. I sneezed and my water broke. I'm analyzing everything this go round and I'm exhausted 😩 I'm 36 weeks and a STM. Sorry for the rant