Scared of csection!!!

DalyMommyof3
So i'm only 8weeks 4days but this is my 3rd baby. And even tho my daughts are 5amd 6 all i can think about which feels like it was yesterday was my csection!!! It was horrible during the surgery my blood ressire dropped to 50/20 i thought i was dying! Anyone have the same fear and anyone have any ideas on how to change this??? Pls help!