Don't know where else to turn...

Danielle • Married since Jan 2012, TTC #1 since Sept 2014, pregnancy losses Sept 2015 and Oct 2016, praying for our rainbow baby.
As my due date approaches, I've become more depressed and forlorn. I am bitter and jealous of other people's pregnancies and babies. I'm not even PMSing. I'm supposed to be past ovulation but I have yet to have a postive OPK or a temp shift. I had to buy my 3rd bulk set of OPKs since I started this journey over a year and a half ago. The closer I get to May 15th, the worse I feel. I can't get over how close I should be to holding my precious baby. I've been having emotional breakdowns, on average, every other day. It accidentally happened in front of my husband today and I feel so bad burdening him with emotions. The poor guy tries and I'm thankful for that BUT I don't think he really understands my pain and how hard this pending due date is for me. Thanks for listening ladies. I appreciate it.