I'm in a bad place

This is the 6th month I've not fallen pregnant, a family relative has found out she's recently fallen pregnant BY ACCIDENT! I've got a holiday coming up but not excited about it because it isn't a sunny destination! And the anniversary of my Dads death is coming up. I feel so crap at the moment and literally want to go far away and just have time for myself to sort out my head and emotions because everyone around me isn't helping including the husband who had got drunk because football was on! Fml.