In the middle of my relationship my ex raped me. For the longest time I made myself think it wasn't raped cause I did love him and he wanted me to "sweep it under the rug". I did for him and since we brook up I realized how awful I really felt by doing that, wish I had said something then. He was my first relationship so I let his best friend convinced me he was a good keeper. Now I regret not breaking up with him then. I feel like its too late to do anything