Just need to vent

Boyfriend troubles..

I have been with my bf for almost 5yrs now. For the last 2 I have grown to hate him more and more every day. I'm 21 he's 24 and I literally support the both of us. He gets SSI on the 1st which doesn't help. I support his cigarette and beer habits everyday. And I support OUR weed habit. But I get no affection. Come in from a 12hr night at work and can't even get a kiss. Acting like i wasn't gone long enough. Meanwhile he's in my apt playing the ps4 I bought him on then flatscreen I bought using the electric I pay for. And will have the audacity to say something about me sitting On the couch on my off days.. We never go out. Clearly I'm paying so why would u not want to go out to the bar with me? He would rather drink at home. I don't remember the last time we went out to do anything fun.. Just really hurts my feelings to know he doesn't care about a future with me. Doesn't want kids. I know he is using me but I just can't break it off.. He's the only bf I've ever had.. But I know he's not the type of man I want.