Here I am just sitting here. Knowing that I should get up take my vitamins and my birth control and do a work out.

I'm only 19 and I have to worry about my weight because I have to worry about being insulin resistance getting to the point of being prediabetic. I'm at the age which people are either in school for their careers and/or partying it up and getting drunk and working. Or they are getting married young or they are planning on their baby showers because unplanned the stick came out positive or they are just happy being single and working. Or just trying to get by. Here I am working and school while worrying if my prolactin is still high or if my birth control is finally getting my hormones worked out. I had three miscarriages two when I was 15 young and dumb not knowing why my body rejected my possible children and then my last one was 10 months ago. I thought a couple months ago I was pregnant again but turned out my pcos just made it so I wasn't ovulating so that's why in the last year I only had 5 periods in a year. So at 19 here I am with the depression and anxiety that's comes with pcos. The cramps and pain that comes with a cyst when it bursts instead of just fading away. That's what I deal with at 19 while trying to use the years before I am ready to have kids to prepare to get my body ready because I know it will be a long painful journey / battle to have the dream come true to have kids which I have wanted to have babies since the age of 4. I am the girl who always asks to hold the babies or to babysit because I know once I can try for a baby its going to be rough. Share your rant of having pcos because all who have it know how rough it is to live with it and also to survive the effects that it makes us have