Single mom?
Mine and my fiances relationship happened so fast we started dating the very beginning of December 2015 and now I'm pregnant... The beginning was obviously amazing, he was so different, so loving and cuddly and talkative! Now we live together and it's like he's a whole different person, I bought a new car and gave him my old one for free, he said he would help me make car payments and has yet to chip in a dime, he does help around the house but it's like when I ask him for the smallest things he throws it in my face about how he already helps a lot! And he makes on average $90 a day just in tips some days it's around $200 and I try to tell him to save for the baby but not even a day later all that money is gone (we live with my mom and literally don't have to pay any bills, but we do clean and I buy groceries and take care of the dogs and we give money when bills are high and whenever needed) and he's always telling me that his money goes to his family, his family is very capable of taking care of themselves, he's constantly spending his money on them or just on himself, he doesn't even bother to give me money to save for the baby, which I know is far away but still, stuff is expensive! It's all just frustrating, he's so secretive, and sometimes very controlling! I can't have any male friends even if they were gay, if I work around males he's constantly accusing me of stuff, which caused me to switch jobs that I wasn't happy at which caused me to be very miserable and stressed! And he is always on his phone talking to people and he won't give me a password and he has female friends (which I'm okay with) but it's just irritating, I can't even have privacy, he knows all my passwords and everything I'm doing at all times! And on top of it all I just want to do what is right for this baby, I want to breastfeed and cloth diaper which he disapproves of, I want a strong name a family name and it's not what he wants, I don't want to circumcise if it's a boy which he doesn't agree with, I want to do delayed vaccines, and he wants to do them all when needed, I want to birth at a birthing center because I know I'll be more comfortable there than at a hospital, confined to a bed with no choice of being around water (water really relaxes me) I don't want to use drugs since all females in my family didn't (little tradition I want to keep) he wants me to use drugs!
Bottom line is, a part of me would just like to be a single mom and make all these choices on my own, but I'm scared to do it, I'm scared to have a baby on my own and be pregnant by myself (especially since I no longer have friends thanks to him) I went from loving this guy so much to having some sort of hatred towards him! I just don't know what to do anymore, it's like I'm some sort of joke to him
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