Marriage

Monica
So my boyfriend asked me if we do get merrier wether or not I would be ok with going to the JP office or did I want a big wedding. We don't have much money between us and I was engaged before and my fiancé had asked me to go to the Jps office with him and I told him I wanted a big wedding but before I could get that he passed away and I feel I would go to the JP office due to the realization that tomorrow anyone could be gone. You never know and if you love the person a big wedding shouldn't matter. I fear a bit that my family will judge but I told him I'm ok with the JPs office and we can have a small gathering of friends and family like a reception. Any thoughts on this?