Bi curious

Ok ladies, I have been with my guy for 3 years. I still have a craving once while be w a female. I have been w a female one before but she moved and well I never really pursued it. This guy has mentally worn me down, used me for money, used me to gain custody of one of his kids, and cheated on me, and than jumped on top of me to assult me(but didn't) I did have the police escort him out but I just get tired of the same damn story from guys " I am different than any other guy. Really  I find women beautiful and attractive and it's like we would understand each other the same because we know what we want