Hey. I Gave birth to my baby boy on April 29th at 11:46pm. Labor was horrific. I was induced at 8pm on Wednesday the 27th had an allergic reaction to the suppository then was given pills to keep my labor going 12 hours later and ended up on pitocin. I ended up being in labor for 50 hours. I wanted to do a vaginal delivery with a squat bar and both my SO and my Mother wanted to do a c-section as I had heavy bleeding in my second trimester and it could put me at risks for a vaginal delivery. But stubbornly I refused. I ended up losing 1500ml of blood 4x the normal amount and my placenta was completely rotted and needed to be manually extracted and I had a second degree tear. My doctor said I was lucky to have made it. I was then bed ridden for 3 days with a catheter and was not allowed to pick up the baby because of how weak I was. I needed 2 additional blood transfusions. Today is my first full day home. I'm terrified of being alone with the baby. I still can't walk stabely on my own I am very weak and he needs me and I feel like I can't provide for him as much as I should be able to. Does any one have any advice or suggestions? TIA