My husband and I have been together for 6 years married for 2 next Tuesday. I love him so fiercely it scares me at times. I've known for a long time that the only thing I've ever really wanted out of life was to be momma, after raising my brother it just confirmed it for me. Well my baby brother is graduating at the end of this month, and my husband and I have talked about children our entire relationship. Obviously in the beginning it was just dreams but now it's a real possibility. In January I had my nexplanon BC taken out, and we haven't used condoms in years anyway so went with the pull out method for our only means of preventing, even though I want to really ttc. Everytime I try to talk about it he says not yet, we need to have more money, I don't think we will ever be finically stable enough for him to be ready. These conversations always leave me feel deflated and honestly, a little depressed. So now ever time after, I just want to cry at the missed opportunity, and he notices and then makes him feel terrible. I don't know why I'm posting this probably just need to vent. Any advice is greatly appreciated.