I feel like this summer is going to suck so bad and I'm not prepared for it 😢 I'm a stay home mom with no car. So I'm stuck in the house all day long. I haven't been out of the house since I had my son 3 weeks ago... and all I can think about is summer. 3 things my hubby and I always do every summer is spend the day at holiday world, spend the day at blue river canoeing, and spending a whole weekend at Patoka lake on the boat. I look forward to these 3 events every year and I feel like this year they won't happen because I'm tied down to breastfeeding! I try to pump but I don't produce enough milk to feed my baby and pump. I'm lucky to get 3oz when I pump. And I'd I get that I have to skip my babies feeding and I hate doing that! I just don't know what to do. I'm getting g so depressed. I can't ever go out and do anything because I have to be home to feed my baby. I LOVE my baby. And I love doing what's best for him, that's why I haven't quit but, I'm just getting so depressed. I just turned 22 and I'd like to still go out and do fun things. I always said a baby won't keep me from having fun. And I still mean that. He is my world and I can do just as many fun things with my baby. But breastfeeding is controlling my life I feel like and I just don't know how to cope with it