Even after 5 months gone by, loss still lingers. With any conversation about being mothers, talking about babies, or even just holidays such as the one arriving tomorrow. It's becoming an emotional feeling again :( I am now depressed knowing that I was a mother/going to be one. I know tomorrow mothers day is supposed to be happy. I am grateful for my mother and all mothers out there. But even my mother has to deal with a loss on mothers day as her mother (my grandma, at age 52) suddenly died on mothers day. It's like we wonder if we're ever going to get through this grief.

I am happy, don't get me wrong. But at times the heartache comes back. It's a softer quiet sadness knowing our babies and loved ones are with Jesus which floods me with peace.

Miscarriage is always going to be hard. I know I won't wake up tomorrow like nothing ever happened. I am so sorry for all who have lost their babies. I understand how hard it can be. I went to the hospital 3 times in 2 days because I didn't know what was going on, and what was even more frustrating was doctors would tell me nothing was wrong. It was devastating.