I miscarried today at 7 weeks 3 days. It started yesterday with light brown discharge but by 5pm I was passing clots and cramping a lot. At the ER the doctor could barely see a sac on the abdominal ultrasound and my hGC level was only 2500. I'm going back tomorrow for a transvaginal ultrasound but I'm sure it will just confirm that I've lost the pregnancy. I'm worried I'll have to wait in a room of pregnant women... I'm the barren woman where nothing wants to live. I'm 35 and it's my first pregnancy so I worry that I'll just continue to have more miscarriages and never be able to have a baby. I'm worried I've run out of time. I've struggled with depression all my life and I feel so strongly that everything is wrong with me. Why would a beautiful baby want to live inside me? It's a sad sad place so full of pain. I've taken more pills to help me sleep but I'm just too upset to be able to fall asleep. I worry that the antidepressants I take have contributed to this miscarriage but I know that I cannot function without them. I'm on a waiting list to see a specialized psychiatrist and probably have electroconvulsive therapy this summer after trying many medications and TMS. I feel ill-equipped for living. I wish something or someone could comfort me now I'm in so much distress.