I've been trying to conceive for like 8 months now. It's breaks my heart every time my period comes. I want to be happy for women that finally get their positive. But secretly I hate them so much. I already have a 8 year old(I know at least I have one, right) everyday he ask if I can try today to have a baby. It makes me so sad! I see his pain. I want to have a baby so badly. I catch myself giving pregnant women the dirtiest looks (what's wrong with me) I'm only 28, but with my son I got pregnant on depo. This time around I've been off my bc pills for like 10 months now. It should be out of my system right? I've tried ovulation test, they just stress me out! I've gotten to the point where I refuse to take pregnancy test, because I don't want to be let down. Is there any suggestions that any of the ladies that have been trying and finally conceived have for me?