Scared to test

Amanda • My husband and I suffer from recurrent pregnancy loss, meaning we've had 3 consecutive miscarriages. We are currently seeing a fertility specialist for help. Hoping for our rainbow soon.
I recently had two miscarriages, one in August 2015 and one in December 2015. I'm currently a week late, but scared and to test. I don't want to see a negative, but I know it's best that I do. It's just so nerve racking. If AF doesn't come by Friday, I'll be testing. I'm very nervous. I don't want to tell anyone cuz the last two times I told people, I miscarried the next day. I feel like it's taboo.