I'm 38 & just completed <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> #4 w the most eggs ever (12), 4 fertilized: 2 have been biopsied for PGD, 1 arrested & I find out today if my final morula will go onto a blast. Why is this tough? Because I have an autosomal x-linked balanced translocation- but it's mosaic. So in English this means I have around a 10% chance that my PGD testing comes back normal (but they really don't know b/c of the mosaic part), & then I can only transfer boys (which still breaks my heart; still in denial). The last thing I want to hear right now is donor egg options (or "my fingers are crossed" - for whatever reason that one really annoys me but perhaps nursing has no idea what else to say). I realize there are many amazing & loving people who have proceeded w donor eggs or adoption & have happy, wonderful families. But I'm not ready to go there.  As much as I don't want to undergo <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> #5, I'd rather cycle again than face "alternative options ". I've run out of excuses at work for why my husband & I cancel last minute for cycle related events. My colleagues must have some suspicions by now - I've been married for almost 16 yrs & have no children. Any tips on how to stay positive? Anyone else in a similar position? I need to pick myself back up again because my protocols are very aggressive (they max things out w me) & I have to be in the right frame of mind. So I'm making the decision to start today- healthy eating, sleeping 7-8 hrs, all those extra supplements, exercise (except my ovaries are still too large & on restrictions for at least another week).  I must say that a regular <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> cycle is very doable & worth it to even those terrified of the process. So please don't get discouraged if you're reading this b/c most have far greater success. I feel terrible for putting up this rant because I know many others have gone through worse things. And I don't want to discourage anyone.  I have a loving & amazing husband, supportive friends, loving family- but I guess I'm reaching out to others who are going through something similar.  Just knowing that others have had similar challenges but pulled through it, would be helpful to me right now.  I just hope I didn't make a mistake by putting my career first & then trying to start a family too late.  Anyone finally have success at this stage?  If so, did you do anything different or did things just finally go your way?